I mean, I deal with it. But, I can't deal with it.
Makes perfect sense right?
When I was blessed with children, that non-existent handbook left out a very important chapter...
Dealing with sick kids.
Okay I totally never act sane. But, stay with me.
So when my first-born got ear infections every other month for the first 2 years of her life and was put on antibiotics for 2 years, I worried incessantly.
Then when my second child never slept for 8 months thanks to colic, I was given the label of having post-partum depression.
Earlier this year while on vacation, my youngest got sick while staying with grandma and papa.
Two visits to the doctor in a week, 4 days of fever, and 2 shots in the tushy later I stressed and was not relaxed one bit on that vacation.
BTW, that same vacation just mentioned, my husband was in bed for 24 hours with a fever and bronchitis. I wanted to go home and cry.
From HAWAII, who does that?!
As for me, I both fear and crave the doctor.
Fear because, duh I fear the worst if someone sniffles.
Crave because I just need that validation that I've overreacted and I NEED someone with a doctorate tell me to stop using GOOGLE and WEB MD.
A few weeks ago we heard of a local youngish man who dropped dead of a heart attack leaving 4 young kids and a wife.
My husband who doesn't crave doctors like I do told me, "I need to get a physical!"
Good, but scary in my mind.
In addition to the basics, I urged him to mention some skin "things" to the doctor.
He is a freckly boy, his mom has dealt with skin cancer, and there were just some spots that needed extra attention.
Coming home from this appointment, his forehead was littered with bandaids and he repeatedly said he smelt burning flesh.
I felt numb that week we awaited, or rather dreaded a call from the doctor that meant something was wrong.
Thankfully, no call. No news, good news.
But, the cycle never ends.
Kids, parents, spouses get sick and I try and restrain myself from looking up symptoms and making my own diagnoses.
I've even printed out a saying I saw today because it NEEDS to be my mantra.
Do you panic, jump to conclusions, or freak...or are you a cool cucumber.sometimes you just have to stop worrying, wondering, and doubting. have faith that things will work out. may not be how you planned, but just how they're meant to be.
If it's the latter, teach me how!